Today, the impossible became possible. With a 20 year drinking career under my belt, 90 days ago I would have told you that going 90 days without booze is impossible. My mindset was aligned to our Kiwi drinking culture mentality: that we need alcohol to have fun, to celebrate, to relax, to reward, to do anything. People who don’t drink are weird.
But today, I did it! I’ve been internally dancing everywhere like Carlton dancing to Tom Jones! 🕺🏼💃🏽🕺🏼💃🏽
Where to from here?
I guess there are two options.
Option one: go back to drinking. This option I believe, is fraught with risks. Podcasts like the Recovery Elevator and books like This Naked Mind suggest but in a much more eloquent way, ‘once a pisshead, always a pisshead’. Evidently, whether we stop drinking for 3 months, 3 years, or in one gentlemans case, 30 years, we will not get ‘cured’. Our brains won’t become rewired to be that of a ‘normal drinker’. In fact, my research stated that irrespective of the time lapse, the brain will take you right back to where you left off, possibly taking you to a worse place than where you left off.
A scary thought.
Many try and overcome this, thinking they are different. Thinking that they can ‘handle it’ this time around. But am I prepared to gamble with this possibility? Nope. Which leads me to Option two.
Option two: start 90 days all over again. I think this is the way to go. It’s too daunting to call this Option Two: Never Drink Alcohol Again. That’s just too big.
To summarise, I’m at a crossroads but the right path stands out much more so than the other. Looking back, I cannot think of anything good that comes from alcohol. The only things that have happened over the last 90 days have been incredible. More of that, please! Plus, my sober Vegas Challenge is comming up in six weeks… stay tuned.
As always thank you for reading, all the best with your journey. The picture below was taken my walk to work this morning. ✨✨✨