That’s it. Done. Just finished the last page of This Naked Mind by Annie Grace. I’m now sitting here, stunned, thinking ‘What WAS I thinking?!?!?’
The not so helpful self help books
Over the years, my bookcase had accumulated a raft of self help books. Most of them didn’t do much. So when I heard people raving about Annie’s book, I’ll be honest, I was doubtful it could ‘cure’ me. With a solid twenty year drinking career and an upbringing where alcohol was the focus of every event, it was hard to see how a book could shift literally a lifetime’s learning and love of wine.
Enter Annie Grace.
I’ve deliberately taken a good six weeks to read this book. It’s now dog eared, covered in highlights and my chicken scratchings. I read and re-read sections. I want to ensure Annie’s concepts reeeeally sink in. Sure enough, they have started to resonate. It’s a profound, weird feeling… like I’ve been completely duped all my life about what alcohol really is.
A lifelong internal battle with booze.
Thanks to Annie, one of the most powerful realisations is that my subconscious mind and conscious mind were at war with each other before I started my sober journey. My conscious said ‘no wine I’m fine’ but my subconscious was saying ‘no wine YOU ARE NOT FINE, hurry up – get amongst it!’. This was the story of my life. Moderation would always fail because of this clash no matter how hard I tried. Now it’s dissolving away. Seriously! Now, as the weeks pass, so this internal battle dies down. I am slowly winning an internal war that’s existed all my life.
Where to from here?
I don’t want to get into any more detail of the book as I would not be doing it anywhere near the justice it deserves. So I’ll leave it here. All I’ll say is, if you have not read Annie’s book and you’re struggling with alcohol, I strongly encourage you to read it. And no, I haven’t been paid to say any of this!
Anyway, I know Annie will probably never read this little thank you. But I can sincerely say, hand on heart, if it wasn’t for your book Annie, I genuinely do not believe I would have gone this long without a wine.
Thank you Annie Grace.
Love and sober hugs from New Zealand 🤗💕💐