Have you heard stories about people who, after quitting drinking, they dream they were drinking again? You yourself may be one of these people. As of today, I am one of these people.
After almost seven months off the sauce, I had largely dismissed this alcohol dreaming thing. But after last night, I know know it’s real. I’ll share a brief recollection. If any of you know about dreams or what they mean, I’d love it if you would share your insights…
So I woke up about 3pm this morning all shakey and freaking out. I didn’t know where I was or what day of the week it was. I actually thought it was Sunday morning but to my disappointment, I eventually worked out it was only Wednesday and that my 5am alarm would inevitably go off.
In my dream, I was in a panic, desperately asking a friend what happened to me the night before. The friend reluctantly told me that I got so wasted (drunk) that I had been taken to hospital. I had vague recollections of the saline drips – the near death stuff you see on emergency room TV. Note that I’ve never been in this state in real life so have no idea where these vivid thoughts came from.
In my dream, I was so upset and shocked at what my friend was telling me. Also, I was horrified that I couldn’t properly remember what happened.
In my dream, I had vague recollections that the cops were involved somehow. But my friend continued to not be fourthcomming with the details.
In my dream, I was fretting that I was about to lose my partner because of this mess. I realised I was about to lose him because he’d not want a bar of me once he found out what happened. Whatever that was.
Then I woke up.
This was possibly the most vivid dream I’ve ever had. To the point where I asked my partner when he woke up this morning if I went to hospital last night. I was genuinely freaking out because I couldn’t tell what was real and what was not. I was so incredibly thankful when he reassured me it wasn’t real. But I was still left feeling pretty disturbed for the rest of today.
I wasn’t going to share this with you in case it sounded too far fetched and you didn’t believe me. But the realness of this dream has me so worked up I needed to know if anyone else has experienced dreams to this extent.
I kind of wonder if this dream is a glimpse into my future if I go back to drinking? You know, like a warning signal? Or, perhaps a flashback to what could have happened if I hadn’t stopped drinking? I don’t know.
All I know is that waking up this morning without a criminal conviction and an IV line in my arm was the best feeling in the world!!!